2020 has been an odd year, and I know we can all agree that it's been a year of growth and leaning into the Lord. A lot has happened, and I never knew that in August of 2020, I would be saying that I'm going back to school or the fact that I've dealt with loss, but I find myself gaining more. Even in the hard days, I've seen God in the simplest of moments as he reminds me of who He is.
This summer, I've been reminded of His character and His sovereignty, and I've learned more about the importance of perspective and how it can change your entire day. In January, I wondered what this year would entail, and I had no idea it would turn into what is today. Did any of us? I've grown closer to those who are most important to me, and I've learned more about my craft. I'll admit, in the beginning of this summer, I felt a lot of uncertainty about the future. How was I supposed to go on when my job was on hold? What was I supposed to do to try and stop worrying so much about the future?
There was a lot of tears and a lot of questions as I tried to navigate through life. But I'm thankful for what I've learned along the way. Perspective is important and can change your entire day, and while I still struggle daily turning off the worry switch, I'd like to think that I've gotten a lot better at changing my perspective and focusing on who God says He is. The reality is, even though I'm a constant worrier, God is patient with me, and He has consistently shown me who He is throughout this entire process. He's answered a lot of prayer and has carried me through every day of the chaotic storms.
Here are some pretty big deal moments that have happened this summer:
- I've started writing a lot more than I have been in the past three or so years.
- I'm going back to school to finally get my digital marketing degree
- I've realized a lot about past relationships and still on my way to healing
- I've become a lot more courageous speaking up about truth
Those are just a few, but it's a big testament to how good God is. Three years ago, I wouldn't be able to say any of these things on this list above. So, I'm really thankful that I can say them now. God has been evident through each trial and gets credit for each victory. I'm older now and the things that seemed to be a big deal a year ago, aren't so. much anymore.
This summer has taught me just how in control God is and how not in control I am. It's crazy to think that before everything that's happened, I thought for some odd reason I was in control of a lot more than I actually am in my life. My head knows that I'm not in control, but most of the time, I love to think that I am. But in reality, we can't control what is going on the world or should we even try. God is the one who is sovereign over everything. He knew what this year was going to bring, and He is the only one who knows the outcome of it all. That truth gives me great hope. As often as I fear the future, I try to repeat to myself truth that God is in control and no matter what happens, He still sits on the throne. Sovereignty is one of the characteristics of God I don’t think many of us dwell on but it’s a good one to study. There is absolutely nothing in this world that is outside of God’s control (Rev.21:6; Col. 1:16; Ps.103:19). God is the source of all power, authority, and everything that exists. This makes Him, and Him alone, worthy of worship. This should provide us with comfort, knowing that He is in control and in the end, He will have the victory.
That’s the greatest and most consistent theme of this summer. Even when I doubt, He reminds me of His sovereignty and reminds me that He is in control of every outcome. He has the victory in the end. He was the same yesterday, He is the same today, and He will be the same tomorrow. I’ve learned a lot and I’ve grown a lot this summer and while I still have my daily battles, it’s a good reminder to know that God is sovereign. Even though it may seem chaotic now, in the end evil will lose and Jesus will have the victory.
Thankful that I serve a God who is much bigger than anything we can ever imagine.
What are you learning this summer? What has God been showing you?
“Ah, Lord GOD! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you” n- Jeremiah 32:17